Why do I like the secondary and/or unlikely-to-happen anime couples most of the time?

It... it's so discouraging. ;3;

For example:
My OTP, RenjixRukia. I will... seriously cry if it becomes IchiRuki in the end.

IchigoxOrihime.
IshidaxNemu.
GinxRangiku.
ByakuyaxHisana.
KaienxMiyako.
CloudxAeris.
GokuderaxHaru.
SasukexSakura.
NarutoxHinata.
HikaruxHaruhi.
HarukaxMale!Seiya (this is... nearing crack XDXD)
SenaxSuzuna.
KoutarouxJulie.
PainexBaralai.
SubaruxAkane.
ButtercupxButch. (LOL, KILL ME NOW XDXD)
SetoxShizuka.
........... and so on so forth. i can't remember any more, but i'm sure there's tons.
ugh.

There's such a lack of fanfics on these couples. ;3;

Today was an absolute failure. Wow.
I was depending so much on the time before exams to study for bio, but our exams were pushed up 15-20 minutes for the cleanup that was necessary at the end of the day (school under construction). And then i ran out of time while finishing up my recording for music, and didn't get to study bio at all.
which i hardly got to look at the night before because of stupid english that took the last two days to study for (and yet i don't feel like i did all that well).

so i bs-ed a bunch of short and long answer questions on the back... I knew photosynthesis and evolution and the endocrine system would come to bite me in the ass, and OH THEY SURE DID. gah.

by the end, i was calculating which questions i would get marks docked, and came up with the conclusion that it would be a miracle if i passed the exam with over an 85%. which is A LOT lower than my actual current grade in bio. WHICH MEANS MY BIO GRADE MAY POSSIBLY DROP BELOW A 90% AVERAGE.

WHICH IS UNACCEPTABLE! UNACCEPTABLEEEEE!!!
well, it is my fault. <_<

gah, exams.
gah, studying.
gah, school.
gah, graduation.
gah, english.
gah, bio.
gah, TIME.


gah, tomorrow.. <_<;

AND MY LIFE IS OVER.


... just kidding.
Technically, it's just starting. But I want to stay this age... for a while yet. >: Why oh why must time pass me byyyyyyyyyyy

i had something to say.... but it flew out of my mind.

김현중... cut his hair! And for the first time since his debut, it's actually short! :D:D

It looks 1290471029501298340175019283 times better. <3
I think the haircut made me like him again (before I was just 'meh'). lol.



역시 남자는 짧은머리가 잘어울려. X)

I've finally started to make my own icons now, and this post is to credit my sources.
So far I've used the textures and brushes of these lovely people:

urbanstrokes
mioyani
lifeisdolce
chaoticfae
piemin
samuraiblues

the more i see Marco, the more i... don't like him.
손담비 is way too nice for putting up with his selfish attitude. <_<; if i were made his wife, even a fake wife, i would not be able to live with him. aside from that couple, we got married is getting boring, even for me... but long live 개미부부! XD i demand that they get married for real! Hurhur.

... SO exciting. *_*
i've actually never been this excited for the olympics before. when i was younger, i didn't even know a summer olympics existed (shows how cluelessly ignorant i was D: )...
so proud of Han Geng when he carried the torch as the main torch bearer for Beijing. XD i didn't get to watch it on TV, but i did catch it on Youtube. awesome-possum.

and i must say... i am also proud of 박태환 for being the young fish that he is. Korea's never gotten gold in swimming before (i don't think... or at least, not in the recent previous years), and he's only '89. :D:D good luck to him in the 200m Men's Freestyle Finals. should i be greedy as to wish for another gold? XD;;;;


omg i wanna learn archery.
and kung fu.
or any martial arts.


and i need to get off my ass and start deciding/looking into universities. i'm so slow T_T i don't have the self confidence to consider going into art anymore =T
plus i have no portfolio, nor did i start on one. <_<; why couldn't i have been a prodigy or genius at music so i can just... do it? U_U; always trying to take the easy way... hmm, bad habit. but honestly, what would i do if i studied music? o_O; i admit, the prospect of a singer sounds exciting, but the chances are so slim.

one of the best quotes ever. :)

Yesterday is history.
Tomorrow is a mystery,
and today is a gift.
That's why they're called "presents".

I have decided I have resolved
To wait upon You Lord
My Rock and Redeemer shield and reward
I'll wait upon You Lord

As surely as the sun will rise
You'll come to us
Certain as the dawn appears

You'll come let Your glory fall
As You respond to us
Spirit rain flood into our thirsty hearts again
You'll come You'll come

We are not shaken we are not moved
We wait upon You Lord
Mighty deliverer triumph and truth
We wait upon You Lord

As surely as the sun will rise
You'll come to us
Certain as Your word endures

You'll come let Your glory fall
As You respond to us
Spirit rain flood into our thirsty hearts again
You'll come You'll come

Chainss be broken lives be healed
Eyes be opened Christ is revealed

...

i'm hooked on the song ATM.

i just had to mention to my dear little livejournal that i should go to sleep early from now on :D;;;;


school is over. go to bed early. it's okay to get sleep.
i think i was born to be some kind of night animal. o_O;
like a bat?

a vampire. >D lol. Edward Cullen's kind. XDXDXD;;;;

i'm posting again so that i can put up a different mood from the other entry XD

yay, exams are finally over :D finished on tuesday the 24th. school ran so late >: i have less summer now. not that i liked summer much to begin with (the weather), but i do value free time D:


when i have free time, i feel more rushed o_O; but when i'm busy, i always take time off to do my own thing. dur.


anyway. i shall feel "accomplished" XD

멀리서 멀리서 멀리서 그대가 오네요
이 떨리는 마음을 어떻게 말해야 하나요
그댄.. 처음부터 나의 마음을 빼앗고
나을 수 없는 병을 내게 주었죠
화분이 될래요 나는 늘 기도하죠

난 그대 작은 창가에 화분이 될께요
아무 말 못해도 바랄 수 없어도
가끔 그대의 미소와 손길을 받으며
잠든 그대 얼굴 한 없이 볼 수 있겠죠 

멀리도 멀리도 멀리도 그대가 가네요
떨어지는 눈물을 어떻게 달래야 하나요
그댄..처음부터 나의 마음을 가졌고
나을 수 없는 병을 앓게 한 거죠
화분이 되고픈 나는 늘 기도하죠

난 그대 작은 창가에 화분이 될께요
아무 말 못해도 바랄 수 없어도
가끔 그대의 미소와 손길을 받으며
잠든 그대의 얼굴 한 없이 볼 수 있겠죠


난 그대 작은 창가에 화분이 될께요
아무 말 못해도 바랄 수 없어도
가끔 그대의 미소와 손길을 받으며
잠든 그대 얼굴 한 없이 바라 볼 테죠
난 그대 작은 창가에 화분이 될께요
아무 말 못해도 바랄 수 없어도
가끔 그대의 미소와 손길을 받으며
잠든 그대 얼굴 한 없이 바라 볼 테죠

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Alex's voice is so soothing *3* his new album is awesome-possum. at first i thought all his songs sounded super similar (they ARE similar, but not as i had thought), but as i listened to each one closely, they became very distinct.
my fav: "데이지 (Daisy)"
it sounds like a mix of Alex (not exactly clazziquai), Loveholic, and Nell. the lyrics are not as emo as the song sounds, but it has a nice melancholic touch :D:D

anyhow, the lyrics above are from '화분', the song by Loveholic that Alex did a cover of.

hmm... 알렉스..Alex.. i use the English name instead of the korean version (which is based off of his english name anyway), but somehow the korean name fits better. ... ... <_<;


ahh, shouldn't be doing this.. need to finish bio lab write-up >3<
i really want to draw. CG. something. anything. ack, i think i'm in an art block.. been going for awhile, then. can't draw much of anything as of late. D:
hope steph has more luck than i do with it -_-;
ericks.. i felt like mentioning your name. i dunno why, it just came up. XDXD

<3

has been crazy :D
and i'm glad i got all my stuff done (bio dissection & lab exam, french oral exam)


and there're so many good singles and albums from my fav artists... i guess it's finally time to stop being lazy and recharge my iPod XD (in like... two months. i wonder how i survived without music for that long... oh yeah, i sleep on the bus)

YUI!
UVERworld!
Alex! (ClaZziQuai)

.. itunes. T_T takes so long to load. i don't know why it's so hard for me to just reach down to the back of my computer and plug it in, but it IS. O_O;;;;;


--
HAHA GUESS WHAT. I GOT ANOTHER HAIRCUT.
and it's a totally different hairstyle, but people (besides the ones who know me really well) don't seem to notice. XD LOL. anyway.

SUCKERS (to church peeps)! Sorry, can't seem to let it grow out. D:

can't.... wait...
so i downloaded all the radio rips i could find and then picked the loudest one with highest quality XD



SO EXCITED.
this boosted my mood, even though it's 2:20 am and i'm still not done my summative which is due in a few hours. >_<
YUI<3

IT'S JUNE. JUNE.
JUNE.
HALF THE YEAR.. IS GONEEEEEEE D:
Peter Pan Complex is kicking in again... >_<



lol, my mood has only been shown as anything happy ONCE. XD how emo.
so just to break that, i'm gonna put a happy mood, regardless of the fact that i'm not happy ATM. :D:D:D
..;;;

Haven't posted anything in a while XD 

So. First things first. 
I MUST thank Steph for buying me that Renruki poster, and fetching some prints by Mou-S for me ;3; ILU. I shall try to finish Gokudera ASAP. Till then, I hope Itachi is filling in for him.. <_< >_>
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soooooooooooooo.............. well, if i say i have 'so much work to do', then peeps in uni or above will argue that highschoolers have 'nothing', so i'm just gonna keep my mouth shut. 

but it's still stressful. <_<; it's all french and music, i say. hard stuffs. 


acne breakout?!?! lol. i sleep too late and don't drink enough water (not even a cup a day... how bad is THAT) D: 
hmm. i'm gonna put my mood as 'stressed', just like Goku looks in my icon. XD!

It's already the New Year.
My Peter Pan Complex has kicked in. (Although I'm kind of forcing it down).
WHY IS IT 2008?! Why do I not know what I should be or what I should major in or what Universities I should apply to?! Why does time go by so fast?! ;_;

I wrote down my New Year's Resolutions (I have three specifics) in my sort-of journal :) ... in which I only seem to write when either I am: 1) cleaning my room, or 2) very bored.

It's 4:30 am.
A great failure, as I haven't even kept my first New Year's Res ONCE as of yet.

I drew a large picture in my crappy watercolour sketchbook, though. I'm not sure whether I'll watercolour it or not, because that paper is not of very good quality and the result is always horrible, I find.

BOOK REPORT BOOK REPORT BOOK REPORT
CHILDREN'S STORYBOOK CHILDREN'S STORYBOOK CHILDREN'S STORYBOOK
oh darn. I just realized I need more of that watercolour paper I was using for the storybook. TAT;;; And a lot of it, too... Wonder if Mr. Groen will check his internet in India? Unless he's back already. <_< But I highly doubt he'd check it at home, either.

MIRU'S B-DAY PIC, SALLY'S B-DAY CARD.
REENY'S ONE-YEAR+ BELATED SORA PIC, STEPH'S MANYMANY BELATED PICS.

... <_<;;

I didn't tag anyone, nor was I tagged: I just thought it was cool XDXD


→ Pick your birth month.
→ Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you.
→ Bold the five-ten that best apply to you.
→ Copy to your own journal, with all twelve months under a lj-cut.
→ Tag 5 people from your friends list.

NOVEMBER:
Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.

JANUARY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY:
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH:
Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL:
Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE:
Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY:
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

AUGUST:
Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER:
Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

OCTOBER:
Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

NOVEMBER:
Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.

DECEMBER:
Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

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... It's actually quite amazing how random things can be. Like the stupid blackout we had just now which lasted for like... an hour.
...And it's really unnerving how it always happens when I'm DOING something. LIKE MAKING ICONS.

ICONS! i WAS MAKiNG iCONS.
And why doesn't Adobe Photoshop have the 'restore session' like sensible Firefox does? WHY CAN'T IT RESTORE THE 10 ICONS THAT I WAS IN THE PROCESS OF MAKING? The screenshots were hard to get because of the crappy quality of the music video on youtube, too... T_T;;

This has left a very, very bad impression on me. I don't think I'll make icons for a while now.
.... Like last time, when my computer shut off while I was CGing (I still don't CG much).


DAMMIT.